In today’s reality many households have to have two incomes to survive. I did want the dream of being a stay at home mom but that didn’t work out the way I liked. So today, like a lot of days I’m having a rough day being away from my baby, and I decided to write down a few of my confessions.
Half the time I stare at pictures of you because I miss you that much. I wish I could say it helps but it just makes me miss you more. The other half I’m happy that I can step without having to look out for a toy, walker, or you trying to trip me. But I would trade anything to trip over your walker.
There are days where I can cry in the work bath room and wish I could just snuggle with you all day. There are other days that I’m so thankful I can actually go to the bathroom without you barging in on me. I would take any day having you and the dog as my bathroom buddies.
I hate having to get out of my sweats and actually doing something with my hair, I’d rather be in jammies dancing around the living room. I have to say though I do love my cute clothes and feeling like an actual person when I get dressed up. I would only wear yoga pants forever if it meant I had the chance for one more shimmy.
At lunch I wish I could throw my pump across the room, I really do hate the sound of that thing by now. With that milk though you get to have a special bonding moment with your great grandparents and that is the only thing I wouldn’t change or wish away.
I feel like I’ve missed out on most of your first year of life while I’m striving to make your life easier and better in the future.
As much as I miss her I know this is what is needed to make a better life for her. She doesn’t miss out on personal interaction by family because she is constantly loved on by her Nani and Beda, it’s just some days are harder than others leaving my beautiful baby girl.
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